happy birthday

eventually i'll get around to a more official post, but i thought i'd post some photos from gray's big day :) everything went SO perfectly, aside from him having to leave us for the nicu. we never thought we'd have a nicu baby, but we're glad he's doing well and SO ready to bring him home tomorrow.


we spent four hours in the nicu tonight with him, and the time flew by. we just cuddled him while we talked, laughed at all the faces he makes, fed him, cheered him on when he burped without spitting up, gave him a sponge bath, changed diapers... and said lots of prayers that he'd get to come home with us tomorrow. things are looking good, and by the time we left he was hooked up to much less and sleeping soundly. i really hope i get to leave with my baby tomorrow. home doesn't feel right without him here.


it's been a crazy weekend. we spent today at a funeral and with family... lots of emotions on both ends of the spectrum. i'm so grateful my little boy is here to balance it all out. i'm so glad that all of our family is here to meet him and love on him. i'm so lucky to have such an incredible husband who is taking such good care of me and who absolutely adores our little boy (that will be another post entirely, watching him be a dad...).


and i am SO in love with our son. i knew i would love him, of course. but i love him so much more desperately than i knew i could. we spent so much time tonight just staring at him and drinking him all in, and it didn't feel like nearly enough. both of us hurt when we have to leave him, and love every second of being with him. in our eyes, he is so perfect. i don't think either of us knows how we were a family without him here.


anyway, enough of the sappy stuff ;) here are some photos we snapped. we really didn't take a lot, especially since we only had about three hours with him before he was whisked away. but be prepared for a plethora of photos that will start pouring in! :)


(i don't think these are in order, but here you go!)

he didn't cry once... until they took him away from his mom and started scrubbing him ;)

my amazing husband, who was SO great throughout the whole day. 

feeling a little better once he had a diaper on :) so alert... he was looking at everyone.

my sweet, sweet baby. i wanted to look at every single part of him.

a happy grandpa. gray looks like he's picking his nose or something, haha.

cute little uncle nick. nick & jake were not sure at all what to do with a tiny baby, but they loved staring at him and touching him.

feeling so happy to be done.. ha. 

grandma loving her baby.

a very concerned looking graysen. 

love, love, love this boy! wish us luck in bringing him home tomorrow!